Thursday, April 05, 2007

On missing someone...


Did you ever have someone entrench themselves so deeply into your heart that it seemed that they were part of you? We were strangers when we met, but over time I found that I knew him as well as I knew myself. I knew what he would say, knew what he would do, knew just what he thought. And it seemed that maybe he knew me too. When I was feeling down and discouraged, I didn't even have to be there with him and he would call. Just like that. We could be miles apart, and still it would happen at that very moment that I needed him the most. Some may scoff at it, but I believe that we were connected beings on a different, unseen plane of reality.

We've gone our separate ways and are living our individual lives now, but just a word from him is enough to bring all those memories back. It's as if I haven't moved a step in time, that I'm still there in that place, that time, that year. The emotions that the memories bring, still as strong as ever. I thought I had managed to put it all behind me, but apparently not. If I try hard enough not to think about it, it doesn't affect me. But when my guard is down, it overwhelms me.

I miss him very much.

17 spins:

angel said...

*sigh*
*totally understands*

But time does heal... or maybe it just numbs... *shrug*

Chin up...

*big Carebears' Hug*

mistipurple said...

you feel, because you are alive.
time heals, a little.
and the pain will get lesser.

just don't grow old and cynical.... like me!! opps.

kyh said...

huh??? ex???

nvm. we gv u sunshine and strength.

:)

L B said...

You're strong and young and you'll find someone that will sweep you away! But, in that little part of your heart, it's still good to store some fond memories..

zewt said...

as cliche as it may sound... time changes everything... if it doesnt... another man will.

Wennnn said...

Rinnah... I hv been thru this oredi and know how it felt... I feel wat U are feeling and at times it brings bek memories too... be strong.. time will come and U will be stronger...

Come Wennn gip hug hug...

may said...

uh-huh...
*nods understandingly*

I know how it feels...

and still going through it, sometimes, when I'm not looking...

*sigh*
*and more HUGS*

Winn said...

do u feel happy or sad or neither when u are 'missing someone' ?

Chen said...

*sigh*
time will heal..
just tat dunno how long will tat takes....

*tickle*
*smile*

Jo said...

I understand that feeling well enough. Last time, hearing his name being called is enough to bring back all the memories be it good or bad. *hugs*

Simple American said...

Good to have those special people in your lives. Maybe this post will create some karma that will result in you getting a call.

rinnah said...

angel: 5 Carebear hugs for you!!!

Thank you...

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mistipurple: 3 timely hugs for you!!

Time does lessen it and I'm thankful that I can still feel it because I'm alive.

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kyh: 1 sunshiny hug for you!

It's a long story... :o)

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l b: The memories are the sweetest ones I have right now, but I'm still looking forward to making new ones with someone else...

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zewt: I certainly hope so. Right now, no one else seems to measure up still. :o(

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wennnn: Thanks girl! *hug*

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may: It sneaks up on you when you least expect it. That's when it really gets to me. Otherwise, I've dealt with it. I think. *hugs back*

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winn: I feel both, actually. Happy when I think of the memories, but sad when I know it will never be.

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chen: You're right. I don't know how long it will take. *giggles from the tickles*

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jo: Oh, I agree completely. Last time, I used to think that I heard his voice or saw someone who looks like him everywhere and I'd be emotional then and there. *hugs back*

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simple american: He is special to me, he just doesn't know how much he means to me. :o)

Kikare said...

i guess many of us feel that from time to time. my past comes back to 'haunt' me too, even though i am in a happy place now.
it is the past that forms who we are today, so i rather have the memory with me than become a vacuum where everything is erased...

zewt said...

i am sure he will show up soon enough :)

rinnah said...

kikare: *nods* I'd rather have all the memories and the emotions it brings than just forget all the good and bad things that happened.

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zewt: And I will be waiting for him. :o)

a^ben said...

wow` i like the picture of this angel.. full of depth`

rinnah said...

Nice hor, the picture. I like it too!