Wednesday, January 31, 2007

No Selling Please!

Yes, I know it’s a funny thing to say, but I don’t like SELLING. Or sales. Anything to do with making someone buy a product they don’t necessarily need or want. I always feel that if I want to buy anything, I’ll go and look for it. No need to shove it down my throat.


It’s the salesperson in the department store who hovers around you like a bee around a flower. They could be doing one of two things: trying to get you to sample / buy their product or watching you like a potential shoplifter. And they love to immediately rearrange anything you’ve touched.

It’s the credit card salesperson waylaying you by the side of the shopping mall (they’re even at the petrol stations!). And they’ll ask you 101 questions about whether you have any cards and how their card is better. I’ve had a desperate salesman (from UOB) try to talk me into signing up for a card with this line, “Please miss, just sign up for the card and help me meet my quota.” !?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

It’s also the friend / friend of a friend who comes to tell you about this “great opportunity” that he or she knows about and they just can’t wait to tell you about it. There normally is some kind of selling involved. You may have to purchase X product to join / be entitled for great benefits and you have to “recruit” other poor suckers people to join and continue to buy. There will be a pyramidical shape involved and most frequently a monthly buyback or quota to achieve.

So I’m telling you, “No, no sales or selling please!”

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

No New Clothes For CNY?

I went shopping for CNY clothes today at Isetan. Sadly, despite the sales, I haven't found any suitable clothes for CNY yet. And CNY is 3 weeks away! What to do, what to do...

I did see a blouse that I liked, a pink flowery affair in some silky, filmy fabric. But it was too expensive even after 50% discount. :o( Looks like I have to work harder at my eBay selling efforts...

Monday, January 29, 2007

First Sale!

I think I just made my first sale via eBay today. Finally, someone (actually, 2 someones) bid on the item that I was selling. So, now I've got to contact the buyer and arrange for the transaction to go through. *crosses fingers* It isn't much, but hey, it's a start! Gives me some motivation to continue listing stuff for sale.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

So Maybe It Won't Rain Anymore Now...

Unless you were living under a rock in Malaysia, you would have noticed two events that received heavy coverage in the news. a) The Johor floods; and b) South Korean pop star Rain's concert in Kuala Lumpur. On the one hand, you have news reports about the severity of the floods in Johor, how the flood victims need help and donations, politicians making their visitation rounds at the affected sites and the normal N.A.T.O. (No Action Talk Only) shadowplay. During the commercials in between, you'll have advertisement upon advertisement saying, 'Rain's coming!'.

Am I the only one to find it ironic that perhaps the organizer of the concert was able to predict the weather for the Johor floods? :o) So now that Rain's concert is over, Johor folk can breathe a lot easier knowing that Rain ain't coming to Malaysia anymore...

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

$$$ Makes The World Go Round

I need money. Who doesn't, right? I need to pay-off some student loans and am thinking of taking on some part-time work / jobs while I search for my new job. Preferably something that I can still do in my free time even after I start work. I'm even contemplating becoming a Starbucks barista temporarily.

So far, I've been listing some stuff to sell on eBay Malaysia (mainly books that I want to offload), but no bids thus far. looks pretty dead, so I'm not listing there. Time to bone up on the how-why-where-what of selling online.

I'd also like to do some part-time editing / proof-reading work, but am not sure where to start posting my services. Any ideas out there?

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Still Searching...

Further to my earlier post... I am still searching for my new meaning in life. There is, of course, the job hunt to focus on, but a part of me finds no fulfilment in that. Surely there must be something more important to life than finding a job and being one of a faceless number of drones out there in the working world.

I want so much more. More than what this life should be. To see more, to know more, to do more. But what? I don't know. I need a Hubble-powered telescope to see the great beyond.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

I Feel Bereft...

I know I should be happy. It is the end of a long and ardous journey to be able to get to this point when I can look back with satisfaction and say that "Yes, I finished my studies". This means more to me than anyone could ever know. And yet, there is a strange feeling of emptiness inside of me where once there would be an ever present thought in the back of my mind. Now it's just... empty space.

Perhaps the correct way to describe it would be to say that my primary goal in life just got accomplished, and another one has not arisen to take its place. Because of this, I feel bereft... aimless... and I don't know where to go next. What do I do? Where do I go?

This picture of crossroads best sums up all the jumbled feelings I have inside. Look at the wide empty open spaces. Feel the desolation of the desert wind on your face. Know how the man must feel, having roads before him that he must choose to go to his next destination. But does he know where he's headed? Does he? Do I?

Monday, January 15, 2007

Too Much To Think About Right Now... Or Is It?

I just can't seem to concentrate on the here and now. I have an exam tomorrow (my final exam) and already my mind is jumping ahead to all the things I have to do after my studies are over. Like renew my driving license and find a new job. Or maybe even think about furthering my studies. I know I should be concentrating upon my revision, after all I do want to do well in my last exam, but my mind just doesn't seem to focus.

Can't I concentrate on and be happy with the here and now? It's like I always want more than what I have right now. Do I know my own mind? Yes I do, but I don't know right now.

Monday, January 08, 2007

When Someone Else Operates on Snail Time

I was miffed at F today. On New Year’s Day, I had sent the group an email to let them know that they were supposed to write a self-reflection of personal learning over the semester (it’s part of the assignment) and that they should send it to me by Friday, 05 January 2007.

F calls me at 2pm on Sunday, 07 January 2007.

“Uh, I will send you my self-reflection write-up later.”

2 minutes later, he calls me… again.

“How to write ah?”

?!?!?!?!?!?! You are already late and behind the deadline given to you and you still have the guts to come and ask me how to write it? I was so miffed at him, I replied:

“How would I know what you have learned?”

1 hour later, F emails me his write-up. If you could do it within 1 hour, why did you wait so long to do it? You could have done it much earlier (since he was not contributing to anything else anyway) and sent it to me.

Guess some people are just operating on snail time.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

My Bark Is Worse Than My Bite

Received a phone call from M today. She was all huffy about not being able to do the budgeting section of our group assignment. (I’m sure she must be upset that I made her take on the responsibility of doing this section.) Frankly, I didn’t see the point of getting all worked up over what she was stressing about.

In our assignment paper, we are given some facts and figures to work with and also to help us with our estimation of the final cost of this fictional marketing campaign. I would assume from the slant of the question (then again, I may be wrong) that when you are asked for the budgeting of the campaign, all the marker wants to know is how much you’re spending. Correct? The assignment clearly states that we will be marked upon the strength of the idea and execution, not on how well we count pennies for the company. As this is still student work, I am sure you would not be expected to actually give facts and figures about items beyond your control (i.e. things that were not briefed in the assignment) like distribution cost and staffing cost. All that is needed is the media cost and execution plan. (That’s my point of view.)

Well, M is grumbling that she can’t work with the figures and come up with an estimation of cost incurred and probable profit from the marketing campaign without the operating cost being factored in.

Then there is F. He of the no commitment and responsibility towards his work and his team members. F SMS’ me to say that he has no idea to contribute towards the project and could I give him an idea. What?!?!?!?!?!?! (I was not in a generous mood *blushes* so I briefly told him that he had to work it out on his own.)

I am all for helping those in need and who are not as capable, but you must first show that you are someone who is actually worthy (that’s a bit harsh, but yeah) of receiving assistance. There’s no point in going all out to help someone who wouldn’t even budge to save himself / herself. Sure, I may moan and groan and bitch and sulk about these people, but my bark really is worse than my bite (no bite at all! Sometimes I feel like a doormat) and most of the time you don’t even hear me bark. And I do go the extra mile to help fellow students who need my help, especially during exam time. (Free consultation advice on assignments, topics and tips for exams, notes from class, etc.)

So, do I help F or not? *puzzles over issue* I don’t have the time to really go and help him (yes, but I have time to blog. Ahahaha), and I’m not sure that I want to anyway. Does this make me a bad person?

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Teamwork is Frustrating

I dislike working in a team. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not anti-social, it’s just that I can’t stand it when people don’t pull their weight on the team or want to push others around. I don’t think that it’s right.

I have to work in a team for this project that means a lot to me. A lot rests on how successful this project is, as it forms part of my studies and will determine my overall CGPA. As an honors student, I know that I am able to complete all my assignments well and on time. My fellow team members… are not honors students.

The saga began when this assignment was announced. M was appointed group leader by vote (and I didn’t want to be the leader because we all don’t get along well with our lecturer). M did not handle this well, and told us all that she wouldn’t be the leader.

We had two months to do the project. Since M was the leader, we all waited for her direction (and since we were busy with our dissertation, no one bothered to prod her into action). Weeks went by and with 3 weeks left to go, I couldn’t stand it any longer. Someone had to get the ball rolling, right?

Since this was a marketing campaign, I suggested that we each come up with an idea (there are 7 of us) so that the best ideas can be selected from the group. This was during the week of 18 December. And then I waited… and waited… and waited some more. No one was really doing anything about it as it was Christmas weekend and we were all in the holiday mood. I was in the holiday mood too, but I got my idea churned out and sent to the rest within 4 days.

More than a week went by. I couldn’t keep on waiting forever (the clock was ticking!) so I sent out emails and suggested dates and times for the group to meet. Although this was not my duty, I didn’t mind this part as I felt a need for the group just to get moving.

On the day of the meeting, some did not come prepared with ideas as requested 1 ½ weeks ago. I cannot comprehend this. What is so hard about coming up with a single idea for a marketing campaign? You are marketing students, for crying out loud! (The culprits were F, V, M2 and A) So we ended up working on my, E and M’s ideas. Fine enough, we still had ideas to work upon.

Perhaps M felt that I overstepped my boundaries and infringed on her territory as leader, because she was very antagonistic whenever I presented any ideas and defensive when I questioned some aspects of her ideas and contributions. (And I already have beef with her over her mis-reading of the situation in the assignment question) But, as she was after all the “leader” of the group so to speak, I let it slide. (But I was told some days later by V that M had announced to the group before I arrived that she intended to speak only and not write a single thing. !?!?!?!?! The nerve!)

A few days later, M was in full-blown bossy mode at our next meeting, again being antagonistic and defensive (but only towards me, I noticed). I however, insisted that she do her part by writing up her ideas and taking charge of the budgeting for the project. It was only fair since I had my hands full with editing, amending and proof-reading not to mention coordination of compilation of the scattered info and A was doing all the creative A&P materials. The rest (read: weaker students) were tasked with collecting info before I shaped it into something more presentable in grammatically correct English.

F did not bother to turn up for this meeting. Neither did he submit his work for the rest of the group to discuss. So we discussed on his behalf and I sent him a short bulleted email on what we had discussed. E also did not turn up, neither did she send us her info. (So irresponsible!)

At our final meeting, F again did not turn up. And he kept on saying that he could not email us the details. (I know the Internet is supposed to be down due to all the cable trouble from the Taiwan earthquake, but the rest of us are still emailing stuff. So?)

At this meeting, M was being bossy again, demanding to see everything that others had done and sent to me (and all this info had been emailed to the group earlier. M did not download it). If you’re not the one doing the work, why bother? (I had asked her to come up with the timeline at the earlier meeting, but 3 days later, she still had not sent it to me.) When V and I rebutted her idea on the basis that it was not within the scope of the project, M acted very huffy and dropped the subject with no good grace.

Remember F? Supposed to send the details of his write-up for the assignment? This fellow had the guts to email back to me what I had sent him earlier following the second discussion (when he was not around) word for word. A cut and paste job. Without even attempting to amend it. (Talk about cheek!) Pffft!

M is now sending emails asking for this and that (in a very accusing manner, I might add) and saying that she wants to see X and X as if I had things to hide from her.

If M had stepped up to the plate when she was elected leader in the first place, I would be fine with the situation. As a leader you do have a right to demand things and cooperation from me (which I have been complying with fully all the way). But when you said you didn’t want to be the leader (M outright rejected the position), to my mind you have lost all right to turn around, take it back up and demand anything from me using said authority.
As for F, he is simply coasting along on the efforts of others (he has not made any attempt to do any work at all!) and I feel that it is horribly unfair if we should all get the same marks when he has done nothing at all. If there are any marks to be gotten from this assignment, I would say that the majority of the work would be because of the creative work of A and my editing work (50% of the assignment is completely written by me!) with a small portion from M. And F should deserve no marks at all.
All being said and done, I work best alone. Alone, there is no one to push the blame to when you fail and there is no one to (unfairly) grab the praise for a job well done. This situation is not teamwork because of 2 selfish people.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

New Year Resolution

First and foremost, I’m only going to make one New Year resolution here. (OK, I’m cheating a little bit and making other resolutions for other parts of my life elsewhere. Haha.) But for this blog diary, here’s my resolution.

“I give myself permission not to be perfect.”

This is important for me because as a perfectionist by nature, anything less than perfect is terrible. As far as I can recall, I needed to have the perfect life, be a perfect person, a perfect daughter, perfect friend, even perfect employee! I hope that this permission will allow me to truly live my life to the fullest, without having this fear of not being perfect enough hovering above my head.


What's your resolution this year?